I love you more than Anything

thats what he said to me last night. he asked me whether i know or not that he loves me. i know darling, but i also know that u also said the same things to another person. so tell me darling, how can i be sure that u love me and only me.

u always said nothing is going on between u and the hooker anymore, but y my heart is telling me the other way around. i'm sick..... i'm sick of all your lies darling. i'm sick of it. dont you feel guilty at all for lying to me. dont you?

i asked you last night, can you forgive someone who did something with someone else. u know to that extend. and you said u've been through that and of course u cannot forgive them. so now please tell me can i also forgive u? i pretend not to know what you have done with that hooker... i pretend darling. its so hard for me darling.... i cant believe that someone who i love so so much could have a heart to do something like this to me. how could you My Bear.

i really hope god will open up your heart to bertaubat darling. please for the sake of our babies please change not for me but for our babies. leave that hooker be with us...... please i'm begging you MY BEAR.

Bila aku sudah Tiada

It is now 8.10pm and My Bear still at office. he said he will be leaving soon. he was at the office all the time today. he went for friday prayers and than had lunch at mamak eat nasi kandar somewhere at taipan area.

why... why i cant convince myself that my bear doesnt have anything to do anymore with the hooker. my heart still telling me that they both still contacting each other. and sometimes if time permits they might be meeting up. oh god i cant imagine what they might have done when they meeting up.please i dont want to think about it. its making me really really sad.

My Bear u said u wants children of your own. ur life is so lonely just the two of us. and now i am pregnant not to one but to a twins. its our babies together but why u still with her. why that hooker. why my bear. why cant you leave her.

do u want me to do the same thing to you too....... but i guess u know i wont do that to you. i hope not........

Pertama Kali

Hati...... kenapa kau tidak tenteram.
Hati...... kenapa kau sering di sakiti.
Hati...... tetap juga kau tidak tenteram.

My Bear..... why u do this to me. what have i done wrong.

My Bear.... u always said u love me and only me..... but how come its very hard for me to believe it. i keep on asking myself whether u really meant it or u just said it only to please me. u never tried to gain back my trust towards u. everytime i started to trust u again, something will come up. u and the hooker, still havent finished right. dont you realized what u have done to me.

u have pushed me away from yourself.